I was not impressed by my father. I understood the need for him to be there for Tommy—to help lift his spirit. But I hated that it was at my expense. That for my father to be there for Tommy, it meant that he wouldn’t be here for me.

The sting of his absence was only made sharper during the graduation ceremony. My peers were surrounded by their families—fathers kissed their daughters on the forehead, and slapped their sons’ backs as they hugged them.

But this time, I resolved to channel my hurt into something constructive.

Over the weekend, I planned a dinner under the guise of celebrating my graduation, inviting Dad, Sandra, and Tommy.

“Mom, are you sure that having the dinner at home is okay?” I asked my mother as she did laundry the night before the dinner.

“Yes, honey,” she said. “I’ve already got everything that I need for cooking dinner—I went grocery shopping earlier today.”

At first, I was fine with having dinner at home—but now, knowing that I had planned something extra, I didn’t want my mother to get caught up in the crossfire.

My father was generally a reasonable man, but I didn’t know how he was going to react.

The evening was set, the table was beautifully adorned outside—my mother always went out of her way to make sure that everything was perfect when she hosted.

But beneath it all was my intention to finally make Dad see the cost of his choices.

As dinner progressed and Mom brought out her caprese salad and breadsticks to accompany everything else, I stood to make my speech.

“Each of us has milestones that define our lives,” I began, my voice steady but my hands trembling slightly. “These moments shape who we are, and who stands with us in these moments can define our relationships.”

I paused, glancing at my father, who seemed to sense a shift in the air. He clutched his glass of whiskey tightly.

I proceeded to recount the milestones of my life, each anecdote carefully crafted to draw a vivid picture of my loneliness.

“At the science fair, as I received the first-place award, I searched the crowd for my father. But where he should have stood, there was only an empty space.”

My mother smiled at me from her seat. She had no idea that I was about to do this—but she always encouraged me to speak my mind and release my feelings. More so since the divorce.

“I’ve always sought my father’s pride, his presence,” I continued, my voice breaking slightly. “But I’ve learned that seeking validation from someone who so often chooses absence is perhaps too much to ask for.”

My gaze locked with his, willing him to understand the depth of my words.

My father’s expression crumbled.

“I’ve missed more than moments, Michael,” he said. “I’ve missed a lifetime with my son.”

From her seat, Sandra looked uncomfortable and continued to hover over Tommy—who looked like he wanted to be anywhere but here.

“Listen, maybe the two of you just need to really spend some time together,” Sandra said. “I know that Tommy’s presence in your father’s life has taken away from your time. But it’s not Tommy’s fault! He’s younger than you anyway, Michael.”

“Michael’s not saying that it’s Tommy’s fault, honey,” my father said, helping himself to a breadstick.

“He’s saying that I should have just chosen to separate my time better. To play important roles for both of them.”

My mother nodded and went into the kitchen to bring out a cake for dessert.

“I’m so proud of you, Michael,” she said, kissing me on the head.

I wanted to embarrass my father. That had been my ultimate goal. But it turned out that my words had struck a nerve for him. It seemed that he was already feeling guilty about everything.

And my speech had just made it more concrete to him—making him realize that he wasn’t the only one feeling bad about the situation.

The next weekend, my father came to fetch me.

“Michael, pack your bags,” he said. “We’re going to spend some time in the woods.”

It turned out that he had planned a weekend away for just the two of us—we were going to sit under the night sky and get to know each other properly. He was going to teach me how to fish, and how to identify constellations.

“It’s going to be great,” he said. “We need this.”

As we drove to the cabin that he had booked, I finally felt a sense of relief. It seemed that my father was determined to try with me. Which was perfect—because I was leaving for college soon, and I didn’t want to leave without making things right with him.

Hopefully, he doesn’t disappoint me this time.

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